use to and maybe still..

morning muse.

2012-01-27T09:00:00.001+08:00

salam.

good morning to all of you.

well i had a conversation with my friend couple of days ago.

in our conversation..

that's so true that sometimes people decide to just be friends even if their feelings are mutual.

it's not because love is hard to sustain though

but the reason is whether we're willingly to give a commitment in a relationship.

in other words,

commitment may complicates everything.

i do believe if we really have faith in giving a commitment

and

if we feel that we can be responsible enough to take a good care of one's heart,

why not if we just give a go on it?

that's what i feel.

aha yes, i'm now talking about commitment.

commitment that may lead for future perhaps.

i think it's getting normal to talk about future at this age.

*the feel of getting older strike on*

hahah

well, good relationship will of course involves

time,

money,

patience,

two people getting through all the good & hard times together,

blessing from our parents,

parents' permission to go out together with the one

and

yadayada.

hmm so that's all that i can conclude in a few part of our conversation

which are

commitment

willingness

responsibility

that may lead to a good relationship

and of course
first of all

to..

enter into a relationship,

having a partner

boyfiee/girlfiee

okay then,

just to share our opinion/topic with all of u.

hee~

p/s : it's been so long since i have actually genuinely liked someone that i cant even remember what it feels like anymore. i cant figure out my emotions. -love this quote.

salam jumaat.

yg lelaki, jgn lupa ke masjid

to perform prayers ya!

tc ppl !

rgrds.

it's kinda elusive.

2012-01-19T14:43:00.000+08:00

elusive? baffle?

yes!

a sudden waked up from my sleeping beauty at the break of dawn.

yet, i still laying on my bed,

random thoughts passing through of a mind that's not fully awake.

by one thought i could see it,

it's totally different than how i'm normally think,

yet it held all the answer.

somehow, it was all gone in one flash,

as i fell back into d drowsy state of semi-sleep.

all i could remember is that..

it was not the way i usually think,

but all the answers i needed were contained within it.

it's within me somewhere,

somewhere yadayada

waiting to be fully unlocked.

how can i love when i am afraid to fall again? so, lead me.

2012-01-18T21:02:00.001+08:00

she's getting to you.

soon,

you'll find out that you don't like

being without her.

maybe,

someday you would realize that

she feel exactly how you did.

therefore,

please don't let her go

ever again.

love.

here, just to share one of d country song that i like.

the lyrics are so beautiful.

here is the link if you want to upload it in u-tube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwJ9RJgsmOQ&feature=player_embedded

will update more, soon!

insya-Allah.

have a good day ahead people!

regards.

exam mode.

2011-09-17T10:45:00.000+08:00

salam and a very good morning to all of you.

i just want to drop by to wish all of you good luck for finals.

when i say ALL means all of you, not only for law students yeahh.

hee~

sure u guys keep wondering especially students from diff uni,

"why this girl always have exam?"

"asyik2 exam asyik2 exam"

"dahh lahh busy, asyik x balas text org lak tuu"

"hisyy busy je.. grrr.. grrrammmm!"

amboi over!

haa.. how should i answer that ques?

dahh ada exam selalu nak buat lagu mana?

*jwb mcm tuu bule x? teehee*

well, in 3rd year niy lagi dan lagilahh busy.

next semester dengan moot competitionnye.

adoii~

i nak masuk untuk kalah.

if menang susa, t kne g next round and buat bundle tebal2 tuu dgn research bagai.

x mau x mau ~ ~!

if kalah,

senang cket, x laa byk keje

& bule focus study after kalah.

*pernah dgr ke org msk competition utk kalah?*

haa if x pernah, so i lahh nk bg u guys dgr niy

hihihi

done with this.

good luck with exams people!

all the best.

いっしょうにがんばりますよね。

regards.

facebook-nian's expression.

2011-09-08T14:21:00.008+08:00

salam, hello people.

today my topic is about (perghh dahh mcm nk buat presentation hha)

okay i just wanna talk about the title.

facebook-nian's expression.

i think all of u know the interpretation of that.

nowadays, almost all friends in fb LOVES to express their feelings in fb.

i don't mind if they express their good feelings.

but,

i feel really annoyed if they express all their anger in fb

until newsfeed flooded with all bad words.

anger?

in a way of cursing people?

yeahh.

i feel like it's REALLY not mature enough.

i think it's much better not to curse people u're livid with in your fb if u don't want people to assume u r not sensible in behaviour or in controlling your anger.

i bet u don't want people to say that u are less mature than what did they expected.

however,

few days ago,

i did understand the feel to express and create an 'anger status' in fb.

it had happened to me where i really wish to curse the fella who make me feel infuriated.

gosh!

but i didn't curse them in my fb status tho.

so not me.

curious what is the matter all about?

aha..

it's about jealousy.

here,

it just that i don't understand why these type of

insecure-immature-type of-girl

always feel that other girls want his boyfriend that much.

oh c'mon, how could u be so jealous if the girls are your boyfriend gang/group since ages?

why would u be so jealous when there's a good friendship between the girls and your boyfriend?

why should u conquer everything?

ayat gua time tgh marah berbunyi :

"perghh belum kahwin dah control lebih2, conquer everything, password smue nak control, payah2.. lelaki tu lak knp diam je? dayus ape?"

haa ambikk~

okay niy ayat marah dalam hati je okay.
hihihi

well, seriously, i don't get it, why must we exchange password with our partner?

don't we have a privacy?

is it a must to give everything..?

did we confirm he/she will be our spouse?

masya-Allah.

jauh lagi perjalanan rakan-rakanku.

semua yang tertulis oleh-NYA kita x tau.

sempat ke x utk ada spouse punn we wouldn't know.

okay, that's all i wanna share with all of you.

maaf jika ada yg terasa.

raya2 niy, x baik marah2 kayhh.

ini hanya sekadar opinion.
no offence.

peace. :D

rgrds.

Cliché huh?

2011-09-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

IDOLA

does it sounds cliche to all of you?

idola a.k.a someone whom you admire the most.

here, i wanna use the context of I.D.O.L.A.

well my first idola is my dad.

second is Tun Dr Mahathir.

AND THIRD?

my future husband perhaps? ((:

well..

dad..

there're too many good words to describe my dad.

if in my hometown, siapa tak kenal my dad.

(that's what ppl says)

at first i don't think i want to do my legal attachment in my hometown.

i want to do in somewhere else.

this is because, i am so scare to commit mistakes and later ppl might say that

"ohh that's azmi's daughter"

if anything happen, they will refer my dad's name

goshh i don't want that to be happen.

but, later..

i feel that i really want to do my legal attachment in my hometown.

yes, i want to.

hmm..

i need to..

i want to look after my dad..

want to spend time with him and family for every single moment.

hmm..

he's too good.

he's our hero, yes of course everyone's dad is their hero.

he always give us advice on what to do for now and future.

advice us

about siblings,

about money,

about family,

about work,

about how are we going to treat people,

about..

lots more.

all is about life.

he always pay attention to my arwah uncle's kids too.

he gv advice to them.

lead them on what to do for their future after SPM ended.

provide em pocket money too.

why must he do that?

because..

he felt that it's his responsibility to take care of them.

take care of his bro's kids and lead them to be a good one in future.

i do really admire him.

okay, there's no more words that i can describe now.

now, in this blog.

only us and Allah know hw grateful we are having such an awesome dad.

mood : unstable
after watching prada to nada.

good night.

regards.

salam lebaran.

2011-09-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

salam.

i am truly sorry for the late wish.

(tapii hm tapiii x laa lambat sgt kan, br 6 syawal. raya sebulan kan kann kannn?)

hihihi.

so here i am to wish all of you including my silent readers selamat hari raya aidilfitri.

maafkan saya jika..

tersalah kata

dan

terkasar bahasa

tanpa saya sedar

sepanjang kite berkawan

dan

mungkin

pembaca2 blog saya niy yg ada terasa hati dgn kata2 di blog saya niy ke kann

maafkan saya.

*dah comel sangat dengan baju tidur dan dahh sepet sgt mata hampir tertidur dahh niy untuk awak2 semua maafkan kesalahan saya jika ada.

LOL.

okay xd kaitan.

TEEHEE

basically, jz nak wish selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin buat semua.

another one wish..

selamat menaikkn berat badan kayhh!

ahaks~

after raya rmai2 amalkn gaya pemakanan sihat & dahh bule2 ke gymmm

hee~

*swt.. berat naik 1 kg. 47 haihh*

statement atas niy, xtau nak happy ke nak berdukacita.

hahah

okay, selamat malam.

rgrds.

rezeki, it is.

2011-08-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

today was my second time went to sri percik.

went there with my roomie.

we reached there around 7pm because of the jam.

many cars out there, saturday kan sure there are many cars along the road.

well we reached there and we saw there were lotsa ppl.

omg, the owner of sri percik siap kata, dahh full.

how how how?

then suddenly one of the worker said to us that they have another one table for us.

we were like omg alhamdulillah sangat.

happy okay! bersyukur betul Allah permudahkan urusan hambanya. :D

so, ap lagi, we ordered the foods.

a few minutes more masuk azan menandakan masa untuk berbuka.

both of us tunggu punya tunggu til org meja sebelah punn dahh me-licin-kan-pinggan-mangkuk-masing2.

&& their worker dahh bbrp kali ulang-alik to send the foods.

ap niyyy our foods x sampai2.

dgn mknn x daaa, dgn lagu2 raya sedih, dgn tgk je org mkn mknn sedap2.. terasa kat oversea x ? cz rindu nak balik mkn mknn kat rumah. hho..

later on, mamat2 meja sebelah usha tny why both of us x mkn lg etc.

siap tlg amekkn minuman (sirap bandung selasih) lg for us.

they all ad buffet kat situ.

agak segan actually, but dah rezeki org nk bg, minum je laa..

then mamat2 tuu mntk aunty (dr t4 kerja same i guess) tuu sendukkn nasi beriani ayam percik for us.

katanya utk alas perut.

senduk nasi banyak weyhh, dahh mcm u beli satu pinggan beriani !

rezeki2..

after dahh dpt then barulahh sampai our foods and drinks.

alamatnye tapau je laaa..

satay lak cancel.

so nw, food td tuu both of us simpan utk sahur.

cant imagine i will eat rice for tomorrow morning too! hho

tgh2 makan tuu, those mamat interview both of us pulak.

duhh..

but both of us lebih byk senyum sng cter.

b4 they all balik, siap tinggalkn num hp tuu yg x tahan.

omg lelaki zaman sekarang.

ad eh lelaki bg number b4 blk ajak dtg beraya?

tulislah call me ke,

text me ke.

ekekeke

but i wont gv any response to strangers.

whatever it is thanks to those mamat n aunty gave us foods and drinks.

alhamdulillah sgt sb Allah dah permudahkan segala urusan dan murahkan rezeki.

alhamdulillah.

*sujud syukur*

p/s : if u wanna eat anywhere it is better enough to call them to make a reservation first.
better do if don't wanna be like us yg agak2 dah rse frust x call dlu.
hhe

ohh lama x update blog nway!
i am super busy these few months.
sorry guys.
will update if im free. ^^
hv a good day!
regards.

what a shuck!

2011-07-22T22:52:00.001+08:00

slm,

hello to all of you. :p

today..

i'm not really sure whether i'm really doing good or not.

what i could say is that all my words and sentences were intangible.

hard to find the eligible word to complete my sentence.

i'm cloquent-less tho.

i could not think properly.

i can't focus while driving in a certain moment.

ohh yes, i did a great job just now!

i drove to a wrong direction.

haa amek, menongkah arus kau iqa!

alhamdulillah i was lucky cz thr hv ny few cars on the road.

ahaa this is what i mean by drive sejauh mungkin, follow the flow.

sweat.

note to myself : it's amiss to drive if thr's alot of things in ur mind.

well today i ate alot!

yeahh, i'm pretty sure about that.

today..

whole day..

i've tried not to show a crook smile on my face.

i did well.

sincere.

thanks to sya and huari for today.

i'm pretty fine now.

sorry if at first i'm lack-lustre..

just gave a laconically feedbacks to all your questions.

this is because..

i don't know whr to start the conversation

as all words puzzling around in my head

thanks again for being a good friend

layan je kerenah i yg x menentu

i really had fun today

at least i dpt kurangkn sikit beban tuu.

thank you!

alhamdulillah, selamat pergi ke destinasi dan selamat pulang.

*sujud syukur*

time is all i need.

2011-07-22T02:39:00.002+08:00

alone

i just feel i need time to be alone

all alone..

it's the best way for this moment

please don't bother anything about me

ask me no question

i need space for myself

i feel so grateful if,
there's no ringtone being heard

i feel good to
keep my phone on silent
or

to switch it off

i just feel that i want to be alone

enjoying myself alone

alone to any place

alone in the middle of strangers

whom nobody knows me

for me, they are strangers

and

for them, i am strangers.
alone, do anything i like
without being observe
without being stalk..

the best thing to make me feel ease is to drive all alone

just drive with no exact place to go

far from anyone i know

im so freaking wanted to be invisible for a moment

because..
i am tired of this so-called games

i don't want to choose whatever choice i have

i don't want to hurt anybody

and again,
why must i think of hurting others
while in fact,
im hurting myself more than them?
urghh

i had so much trouble vocalizing my feelings right now.

thank you.

thousands of what if.

2011-07-14T22:55:00.003+08:00

thousands of "what if"

do you ever sit and think of "what if"?

what if.. you had never said the first hello?

what if.. you didn't have even a chance or opportunity?

what if.. you had just a few minutes or even seconds more?

what if.. you could turn back time?

what if.. etc etc etc.

the most important,

where would you be in few years more

better?

worse?

less confused?

more confused?

happier?

sadder?

just what if..

okay, kawe nak bagi prenly advaihh laa naa, dont think too much.

hihihi

berserah pada-NYA dan usahakn yg trbaik utk diri dan keluarga.

insya-Allah.

enough said.

regards.

toodles~

one word remained unspoken.

2011-07-14T12:52:00.010+08:00

salam readers.

i have some sort of short conversation with my friend a fortnight ago.

don't u wonder what were our conversation all about?

it's about one word that remained unspoken - "SORRY".

why is it hard for some fella to say "sorry" for what they hv done?

why don't they just admit it.

now, the main subjects are, boys.

yup boys!

maybe some of the boys feel that,

"nahh.. it's okay, it's just a misdemeanour. so why should i ask for an apology?"

some of my friends say that it's normally because of their egoism are up to the max.

ohh it's ~~wondrous~~!

well, i'm still with my opinion which,

by saying "sorry" is more appropriate in a way of admitting your own fault.

okay, actually my friend and i shared the same experience.

we were not really quibbling about this but we felt its too abominate if someone,

especially boys who u started to trust,

as a friend did this to u.

ehh ehhhh ape niy? daripada tadi x habaq2! pe cer weyhh? LOL.

adoii yaiii ! okay2, actually mcm niy..

sometimes we will feel,

"alhamdulillah.. at least ada membe lelaki yg bule tlg kte"

when that boy says he really can help u, maybe in term of sending u back home or etc.

he will normally ask around what time do u need his help.

&&
u dgn brbaik hati mention pukul berapa u nk minta pertolongan die

ckp kat die if die nk makan dlu makanlahh b4 tolong u if it's near to lunch hour.

that boy was okay with it

says that if anything just gv him a call.

later on, he came out with some sort of silly idea without telling u.

u did called him.

u tunggu mcm org bodoh je sorg2, waiting for him to come and fetch u but he didn't show up.

*okay niy yg buat i semangat lg nk drive kereta sendiri muahaha*

he was not even calling u,

but end up he asked someone else to call one of your friend to convey it to u..

saying that u can't make it because u came out with a last minute idea,

which was probably to watch movies etc.

*holly crap!*

in the first place, why cant u inform it by yourself?

later, ur fren asked u to call him & ask whether he really can help u or not.

if not for sure u need to find someone else who could help u with a sincerity heart, sincere than that fella.

the thing that u will feel more and moreee annoying is that,

when he says,

"u ada org nk tolong u x? if xda i bule tolong"

ohh puhlishhh.. don't u ever say that again!

don't give hope to ppl if u really not in the intention of helping ppl bai.

*huff puffff*

he didn't even say "i am sorry".

starting from the day itself i'm starting not to like and believe in you.

ohh boy, you're sucks and that's sad.

but whatever it's thank god, i know what type is he in.

thank god for granted me a friend who can be trusted on.

she is more busy-er than that boy. yet, she's willingly to help me.

thank you.

thank god it didn't happened to be the worst thing same as my friend's experience.

p/s lama mau karang ayat2 niy but x tau cmne nk sampaikn. hhe

till then.

regards.

forgive

2011-07-14T03:14:00.005+08:00

forgive.

ill forgive you for liking me too much,

forgive me for not liking you enough, yet.

ill forgive you for the loud racing of your heart,

forgive me for not hearing it before.

ill forgive you for finding me amazing,

forgive me for never noticing.

ill forgive you for wanting to be with me more than anything else,

forgive me for avoiding you sometimes.

ill forgive you for keep trying & not being able to let go,

forgive me for never holding on.

heart says, hold me on.
i will try my best.

hate to be one of it.

2011-06-25T13:45:00.002+08:00

salam.

babe, i am truly sorry that i just realize u posted something for me in ur bloggie a year after.

i was about goog-ling just now, then i saw your post.

related to me.

gosh, i would like to thank you for everything.. from the bottom of my heart.

your post was really.. touched.

still feels nostalgic everytime i walked along the place we use to hangout together with others.

i had to admit that my tears fall like a rain.

urghh i hate to be one of the crybaby.

damn i hate this.

all this while, i am strong enough, won't cry easily.. seems to be heartless tho.

but nowadays, everything seems to be so sensitive, easily touched.

all i can say is that i still and always remember those whale of time that we had together in our friendship.

of course our friendship will never end.

u're my bestfriend ever babe.

only one word to prescribe those statements, " alhamdulillah".

2011-06-24T20:11:00.006+08:00

salam readers.

a very good day.

well i am really happy..

sangat berbesar hati menerima msg drp adik2 yg sy ajar utk mengisi masa lapang.

guess what subject did i taught em???

its mathematics baby! *whoots*

haaa..
sepa kata budak2 law x bule ajar matematik?
meh cek katuk kepala hang cket! okay over! hha

hmm actually i didn't touch mathematics books for an ages && jauh sekali laa kan nk pegang calculator! hhe

so what i can say here is that, i felt so frustrated when i can't even answer/forget the method that i've used it before when i'm in ckg maznon's class.

*berkarat sudeyhh*

shoot! the most worst thing was that i am totally forgotten how to use the scientific calculator.

*derr..could u imagine that hw terrible i felt*

it was like a ~~doomsday~~ for me. hisyyy..

so i started to read again the calculator instruction & try to remember/answer mathematics ques.

thanks to leez and lil bro qib who taught me few of the steps.

satu dua steps dah berjaya ingatkn sy kembali utk semua jalan kerja yg sy pernah belajar dulu woohoo alhamdulillah.

at first mmg terasa teruk sgt, bende yg dlu senang je utk sy jawab kini kian x-ter-jawab.

rse nk nangis okay. huu~

but semue yg sy alami niy, including

belajar again everything from the starting point - a quick refresh,

tidur lewat utk buat latihan,

check blk instruction culculator bagai..

semuanya berbaloi.

alhamdulillah, usaha x sia-sia.

salah satu feedback yg sy masih ingat sampai skrg ;

"slm, sori ggu, sy nk gtau ni, td exam math, sy dpt buat smue sekali. terima kasih ats ilmu yg kak Ain bg. sy puas hati utk exam pertengahan thn ni."

dan ada lagi msg2 yg sy dpt yg membuatkn sy gembira mendengarnya. :D

baru2 niy sy terima lagi satu msg yg sgt2 buat sy terharu.

"slm, tq tau kak Ain. sy dpt A matematik. sy dah minat matematik dan dah minat utk belajar. dulu keluarga sy x syg sy, skrg sy dah nmpk mereka ambil berat hal sy. tq byk2 kak Ain, syg kak Ain!"

i'm seriously touched by those statements.

kegembiraan tidak dapat diluahkan dgn kata-kata lagi2 apabila usaha dan penat lelah kita mereka realisasikannya dgn kejayaan.

alhamdulillah.

terima kasih juga kepada ckg matematik yg disayangi,

ckg maznon.

thank you for reading people.

jz sharing the blessedness with all of you.

have a good day ahead!

regards.

should always be contented dei cha! :p

2011-06-24T18:44:00.001+08:00

be contented.

terima seadanya.

believe in 'saling melengkapi' principle.

dei macha, do you know that life doesn’t hurt until..

you think about how much things have changed,

&& when you’ve lost along the way

&& also about how much was your fault.

nothing more nothing less

2011-06-24T17:05:00.033+08:00

nothing more nothing less

i miss you is the best three words fit.

it's always times like these.
there's something in the air at night..
it brings your memory back to life.
there's a need to remember to breathe.
when i'm driving..
it's dark outside,
i need to fight to keep you off my mind.
eventually..
i'll just end up ~~talking~~ to the steering wheel.
we will just keep this between you and i,
no one else needs to hear my heart break in two.
&& the only real sound is when the oldies music were on track
i'm telling myself it's too late for tears anyways.
those days..
you said it's always late at night, that sound travels faster,
so tell me boy,
is that why i can hear your voice in my head?
&& now i feel like tonight the time air is stealing my breath away.
so i push the pedal down further to get this heavy feeling off my chest.
i know it just a midnight craving !
nothing more, nothing less

i miss you.

アートワーク。

2011-06-05T00:01:00.002+08:00

went to tamayama sensei house.

heard that his artwork is very popular among the japanese ppl.

i really admire his artwork.

アートワークは美しい!

roses.

nice right? :D

explanation about his artwork.

they're creative aren't they?

ahaa i really love that senbei !

delicious yet expensive sia !

phewww..

drinking ocha a.k.a green tea

*hot green tea is really suitable for us during cold*

guess what am i eating? hha

*scroll up*

the taste is like an ice-cream cone. ((:

model of roses?

*wink*

yes we're too curious and excited of the outcome! hee~

sensei started to draw dy. ^^

i am so in love with all of his artwork dei ! whoots*

purple purple purple wee~

not to forget, his signature a.k.a cop mohor.

ehheee i mean his red colour ink name chopppp

hehehehehehe

i'm not sure why sensei asked us to write our name not in a straight line. katanya kene menyerong such as like rays. something got to do with feng shui or kepercayaan mereka senang cerita. ((:

like this game! hahah

they call something something token. XD

such a lovely artwork!

gifted betul !

every visitors get his precious artworks.

thanks!

love it !

not heard by anybody.

2011-06-04T18:21:00.000+08:00

the tears that is.. not heard.

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a boy sits in his room with unseen tears running down his face.

not about to end anytime soon..

he sits on his bed and reaches under his pillow..

he pulls out that hidden notebook with the pages filled.

page by page he rips them out,

the memories of her,

good

and

bad..

the only person he ever loved was this girl.

he kept tearing at the pages, trying to let the feelings go.

trying to forget the girl who just shattered his heart into pieces.

not too far away from that boy's home sits a girl, all alone.

all alone with music blaring and tears..not heard by anybody.

she kept it all alone.

her head is down..

well, actions speak louder than words.

her hair falls down, all over her face.. so messed up, so misplaced.

unheard tears streaming down her face as if it will never end.

she understands that things will never be the same.

she takes out her notebook and a black ink pen.

starting to write anything that comes to mind.

she tries not to think about the boy because the only pain worse than having your heart broken.. is breaking your own.

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btw, i saw one of the funny pic.

check it out ! hhe

don't ask me whether it's true or not cz i don't have this kind of disease - amnesia.

hihihihihihihih

friendly term can be apply here. to them.

2011-06-04T17:37:00.003+08:00

おはよう!

いま、調理時間! （*´▽｀*）プッ

そーちゃんとゆーくんととてもすてき!

それらは調理している私を助けたいと思う!

using santan. cooking malaysian food.

he looks so curious about my dishes and wanted to help me. hhe

こーちゃん、わたしは。。もみじがだいすきです。

（*´ー`)

朝食!健康な食物権利?

it's green tea, homemadeee yogurt, french tosttt, apple juice with kaya which i bought from msia.

the labu sayung-tembikar made from kuala kangsar, perak (their lambang kemegahan), bunga telur, their first time to see that kind of fancy creation for wedding ceremony (i explain them about the malay marriage tradition which using bunga telur), and few rattan small boxesss.

side dishes, the yummy cream puff !

i really like it!!

lelaki2 comel dlm family i hhe

dad spent time 'sparing' with his kids.

how lovely!

preparing something for us.

she's really a good houswifeyyyy!

（⌒_⌒）

my adorable brothers!

(^-^ )

aha this is the creammy yummy puffyyy yeayy!

＼(*T▽T*)／ﾜｰｲ♪

this is how it look like ya.

teaching them playing congkak.

better for me to bring the plastic one cz it's lighter than the actual congkak though it's twice the price of the actual kayu-congkak.

for them it's okay. WAHHH! hihihi

after that, we went to our welcoming party.

i am extremely nervous that time!

nervous to meet all japanese people.

nervous to talk japanese language to them cz scared if i talk wrongly hha

then, nervous about self introduction

nervous about our presentation, of course! cz i am the leader. huu~

nervous whether they like the one i cooked or not.

erkkk.. actually, from A-Z i wanted to inform u guys that i am so nervous about everything!

にほんじん。

自己の紹介。

はじめまして。

わたしはアイカーちゃん。

どうぞよろしく。

few sentences that i used. informed few more lines about myself but forgotten dy. hhe

jigoshokai~

self intro~~

i met them, the sweet couple from america!

they were so friendly.

the kids!

like the girl, so cute!

if u dont believe it, scroll down to see her cute face!

*nak anak comel mcm tuulahhh*

hihihi

kanpai !!

"( ^0^)／q旦☆旦p＼(^0^ )"

few of malaysian foods !

her daughter and george's are pretty aren't they? (:

きこーちゃん!

she loves to play! :p

she is a cute lil girl !

super cute lil boy.

comel sgt budak kecik tuu weyhh, geram!

making jokes before practice dancing.

*padahal berjenaka untuk hilangkn nervous tuu kan hha*

practice dancing

*behind the scene*

ecehhh! ;p

haaa told ya that the lil girl is cute!

&& that is her mum.

douzoyoroshiku onegaishimasu!

（^_^ ）

9 of us.

sexy dance gonna start now! whoots*

psttt.. wanna tell u this, her voice is awesome ba! hho

after, ellyn and yen's performance......

hell yeahh, it's our performance!

bring it on baby!

＼(^＼)(／^)／＼(^＼)(／^)／やっしょうのまっかしょ

lead the dancing steps.

thanks to our senpai ajar ktorg sampai pandai ! hee~

frankly speaking, it's damn hard for us to dance.

at first, we were all stiff. yeahh stiff dei !

duhh macha, steps punn berterabur at first.

but later, alhamdulillah, we make it!

woohoooo!!

now it's time to have fun dancing & show the steps to japanese people!

hee~

alhamdulillah, i could see their happiness and joyfulness!

(ξ^∇^ξ) ホホホホホホホホホ

ohh.. actually during the dancing time, i need to hold the 2 cute lil kids, so cute dei teaching them the steps! hhe~

suguira-san really enjoyed the moves! hha

we have the video's actually, if rajin i upload k!

hhe

their puppet performance.

volunteer to play the puppet. hee~

they were so excited with the gift from the game called BINGO ! :p

our batch group photo!

暖かい歓迎ありがとうございますほた。

*わたしはたのしいかった!*

probably will.

2011-05-23T20:19:00.003+08:00

salam.

hey hello hii hola readers.

hihihi

actually i watched one movie at astro 702, diva channel & the combination of something borrowed.

so, here, the conclusion in that movie && i could relate it with our life too.

as we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down,

probably will.

you’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts.

you’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them,

and

you’ll cry because time is flying by.

So take too many pictures,

laugh too much,

forgive freely,

and

love like you’ve never been hurt.

life comes with no guarantees,

no time outs,

no second chances.

you just have to live life to the fullest,

tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off,

peak out,

dance in the pouring rain,

~~hold someone’s hand~~,

comfort a friend,

fall asleep watching the sun come up,

stay up late,

~~be a flirt~~,

and

smile until your face hurts. :p

don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all,

live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

hahah

i want to say more in this entry but i have to go.

want to watch news and juvana at tv3.

will update again later ya.

tc!

rgrds.

lil qash tears

2011-05-23T19:44:00.000+08:00

salam

good day.

yesterday qash asked us to bring her bobby to veterinary doc.

she said her bobby is in pain.

bobby seems lil bit diff.

from active to passive.

so, she was extremely worried about her bobby.

this morning, we went to the see the doc, she said that it was too late, why didn't we bring bobby to do the check-up earlier.

after the treatment, on the way back, bobby seems to be lil bit active maybe because of the reaction towards the med & injection.

but a few minutes later, he died.

we were worried to inform the lil one.

in fact she has exam today.

it might be a distraction if we inform qash earlier.

on her way back home she asked my mum,

"how was it? did they bring to doc?"

my mum keep quiet, at first.

but then told qash that

"i have a bad news to inform u, your bobby dah tak da"

out of sudden, lil qash kept quiet.. and started to cry.

yeah we can see the tears all over her face.

pity her.

this lil one really love all her rabbits, boboy, bobby, and berry.

*teringat i, at her age, my cute squirrel died. mati kaku weyh. mati terkejut sebab kucing. sedih sangat2. fyi, i lg teruk, 3 hari nangis. 3 hari berkabung. =.=' hopefully lil qash is going to be fine after this"

setiap yang hidup pasti akan pergi suatu hari nanti.

past

2011-05-23T01:16:00.001+08:00

P.A.S.T

it's hard to accept, but you can't change the past.

you know that there must be a reason as to why everything happened.

you can't go back & manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen.

because, life would be..

meaningless

boring

just not worth living

but you can change the future & that's a beautiful thing about life.

yes, you will make mistakes

yes, you will have bad days

but,

as long as you let the past go,

you will have such a gorgeous & bright future ahead of you

knowing that things were meant to happen.

knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person.

there will always be something amazing in every moment life-time.

thats' all for tonight.
*sleepy*
good night people.

-aika-

she may not be thinking about you but..

2011-05-23T00:37:00.004+08:00

she may not.

you may not be her first, last or only.

she loved before she may love again.

but if she loves u now, what else matters?

she's x perfect, u aren't either,

& the two of u may never be perfect together

but if she can make u laugh,

cause u think twice,

& admit to being human and making mistakes,

hold onto her and give her the most u can.

she may x be thinking about u

every second of the day,

but she will give u a part of her that she knows u can break her heart.

so, don't hurt her,

don't change her,

don't analyse

and

don't expect more than she can give.

smile when she makes u happy,

let her know when she makes u mad,

and miss her when she's x there.

nice saying right?

it's from

.bob marley.

few weeks with japanese foods. YUMMEYHH!

2011-05-23T00:15:00.003+08:00

salam.

hey guys~!

i didn't update my bloggie for an ages.

lazy ass huh?

nahh.. kinda busy actually.

lotsa things to catch up!

here, i would like to share few pics that i took.

i don't know why these few weeks i ate lotsa japanese food.

i want something, erkk foods that have the same taste as in japan, esp fresh shashimi.

but, i couldn't find any, yet.

however, i enjoy eating the foods here. :D

wa zen

went here with my two precious friends. (sensei dahh mcm membe baik ktorg) hehehehe

ladies nite isit? XD

it's kinda farewell party actually.

i really gonna miss you sensei !

sensei, thanks alot for everything!

thank you for teaching me japanese language, sharing stories esp life in japan, care towards my friends and i && lots more.

really gonna miss you.

will visit u one day.

insya-Allah.

*hugs*

me, sensei, tira

erkk the green colour is eda-whaty?? hahah

it's edamame guys.

it's japanese green beans,

i really love edamame. my snack during in japan. wee~

sensei <3

this is sensei's fav food !

superb!

green tea!

us.(^^,)

yes i know we ate alot! hha

shashimi !

tenpura udon.

noramally i will eat udon.

just love it. ^^

lovely sensei~

わとしのかわいいせんせい。

this is yakuza's wife. tira-chan! *wink*

my baby polar. ;))

sibaraku.

shashimi ! nyumm nyummmm ;p

ehemm.. belek new phone lahh tuu! hihihi

i like to eat this! ibarat 'snack' when i was in japan. ;p

but at wazen there was much tasty than sibaraku. huk3

lucky got friend yg layan all types of food.

wee~

that's all for today.

thanks for viewing :D

regards.

pulau.

2011-03-24T23:59:00.004+08:00

pulau.

kau pulau yang menawan tetapi sudah lama tiada yang berkunjung.

kau pulau yang sentiasa mengekalkan kesopanan, tatasusila dan prinsip tersendiri.

terkadang kau merindui saat kau didatangi pengunjung yang baik hatinya.

terkadang kau mengimpikan pengunjung menjagamu dengan hati yang tulus dan ikhlas.

ketika mengimpikan, tiada yang sudi tetapi kebarangkalian kau terlalu cerewet dengan pengunjung2 yang ingin mengunjungimu.

ketika mingimpikan, kebarangkalian engkau belum bersedia membuka pintu hati untuk pengunjung bertandang mencuba nasib.

dan apabila engkau sudah bersedia, membuka pintu hatimu, tiada didatangi pengunjungnya.

dan apabila engkau penat menunggu, maka ketika itulah berlumba-lumba pengunjung mengunjungimu.

ada yang berkunjung dengan harapan setinggi gunung.

ada juga yang berkunjung dengan perasaan sekadar mencuba.

segelintir masih dengan kata-kata tersirat.

segelintir jujur dgn kata-kata tersurat.

tapi kau sudah penat, walaupun, ada ciri-ciri dan kualiti yang menarik dek hati.

tapi kau tetap mencuba, sedaya-upaya memilih yang terbaik dalam kalangan yang terbaik.

bukan terbaik dari ladang.

bukan terbaik sekadar menunjuk.

tetapi terbaik dari segi dalaman dan luaran.

tetapi terbaik dari segi akhlak dan sahsiah.

terbaik untuk jangka masa yang panjang.

terbaik untuk seumur hidupmu.

pencarian yang kau lakukan selama ini moga-moga diredhai Allah swt dan diperkenan serta dipermudahkan jalan oleh-NYA

insya-Allah..

proud of you!

2011-03-24T22:58:00.005+08:00

alhamdulillah, my lil bro get straight A's, 10A+ for his spm result.

thank you Allah kerana engkau telah murahkan rezeki adikku dan memperkenan doa kami semua.

alhamdulillah juga scholar khazanah dalam tangan adikku.

congratulation again bro!

u make us proud of u! :D

precious. no doubt.

2011-03-24T22:44:00.002+08:00

salam readers.

hello.

hii (:

didnt write for an ages.

so here i am ! :D

well my entry for today is precious.

what got to do with this term, uh-huh precious???

time? time is precious huh?

yes, time is precious.

i wanted to say, time is more precious when i spend it with those kids in

rumah anak yatim darul aiTam.

no doubt, believe me, it is precious. :D

this was my first time staying together with them for about 3 days.

even 3 days, i've got the kemanisan beramal dan memberi, alhamdulillah.

i still can remember, that night, after i received msg from the director saying that we will having a meeting on that night.

even though i am exhausted, (with 8am until 2pm class without having a break and i could tell u that week was my pre-busy week), masih ku kuatkan kaki melangkah, masih ku tegarkan semangat utk join the event.

ternyata segala penat yg i alami, sangat berbaloi. ((:

when i try to act in the role-play, i was asking this to myself,

"bule ke iqa buat niy?"

"bule brlakon ke depan senior2 niy?"

"bule ke iqa ajar adik2 nanti?"

"bule ke iqa handle/control adik2 kecil?"

.. cehh! berapa punya banyak BULE daaaa?! ahaii~

i know that i dont have enough faith in myself. but hey, later on, i managed to survive yaw! weehee~~

honestly, i am glad that i joined this event, meet adik2,

aiman comel (sangat teruja dan kagum melihat adik aiman yg bru brumur 4 thn mengambil wuduk dan solat sesudah masuk azan),

ishak and akmal aiman (i can see that both of them have a bright future, mereka petah brkata2),

daniel (nmpk adik niy jns yg mndgr kate dan baik),

huzai (selalu kacau rakan2 tp i kagum dgn adik niy, wlpn kacau rakan2, adik niy masih dpt jwb segala prtanyaan i, which means, wlpn i nmpk adik niy x beri prhatian sgt, tp adik niy still mendengar dalam diam, dan care adik niy jwb sgt bagus and always came out with idea yg bernas),

fauzi (sgt cekap math, i suke tny soalan kira2 kat fauzi, fauzi niy jns yg dgr ap org kate, focus pd sesuatu yg die buat),

rabani (nmpk pemalu tp after tny2 soalan, die nmpk okay, brpotensi utk maju),

man (aha adik niy lak pandai menyanyi, wlpn nmpk pemalu, man niy berani mencuba, i sgt suka semangat man!),

man (die niy pandai, insya-Allah, dpt mengapai cita2 yg diimpikan sb man niy brfikiran jauh which i mean die dpt fkir ap yg die nk create or buat or reka..),

syawal (masya-Allah, adik niy comel sgt, geram i tgk tp bule tahan hyper, tp apepun die dgr kate i ehem!) hhe..

aiman f5, (adik niy lak.. plg i ske tgk gigi die, cantik! hehehehe.. niy, aiman niy nmpk pemalu, tp suke betul brdebat dgn i hha.. & bylerh tgk care aiman niy, die jns yg bule survive mane die pergi, die pandai sgt math, takut nk ajar die sb if salah.. ohh i'm dead i'm deaddd! hahah),

mimi (die lak jns yg pemalu, sopan je adik niy.. creative betul mimi niy, siap tulis2 atas tissue! hee~),

lastly,

matun (die okay, i ske betul group ngn die dlm game "goreng pisang", trnyata die cekap memikir! fuhh cayalahh! hee~)

ohh tidak dilupakan, mamat ! adik niy comel je, nampak baik and sopan je. senang brkomunikasi dgn die and yg plg penting i suke die jns yg selalu senyum, senang hati melihat! (:

-terasa pilu ketika ingin meninggalkn adik2 semua, siap iringi sampai ke bus, insya-Allah dik, suatu hari nanti pasti kite akan brtemu lg-

p/s: sy sangat suke dpt bunga drp adik lelaki kecik, dlm 4 thn kot die, comel je dtg2 kat sy then bg bunga.
sy tny, "ni bunga utk kakak ke?"
die angguk then senyum je.
korg agak2 bunga ap die bg?
unik betul.
first time dpt bunga jenis tuu!
guess guess???
........
aahh lambat! XD
die bg sy bunga melur!
thanks adik, bagi kak melur bunga!
ehh silap cek!
thanks adik, bg kak iqa bunga melur.
hihihi

okay, i guess that's it.

later if mereka dahh upload pics, i will grab it and upload here okay!

till then,

regards.

ひなにんぎょう。

2011-03-03T01:10:00.002+08:00

今日, 3rd march.

これを見る最後の日。

ひなにんぎょう。

my grategrandmotherはこれを与えた。

彼女はそれを作った。

すごいよ!

hee~

okay, the fact is that i need to make sure that i must keep this in the box back after 3rd of march.

if not..

i will not get marry.

i mean,

if i just let it be thr on my table, more than 3rd march, i will not get marry till the end of my life.

huarghhhh..!

mOmmy i wanna get marry!!

hihihihi

(tringat lagu bruno mars - marry you)
hmm guys,

japanese ppl do believe in this ya.

so, if u guys have this kind of ningyo pls be alert with the date okay.

if not tak kawen laa kauuu.

muahahaha

btw, i love this quote.

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they're afraid of falling & getting hurt. Instead they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. That is why we just have to be a little patient & the right boy, the one who takes a chance to find the good, right apple, will come someday - pete wentz

walla ! what a nice quote!
^^

okay then, gonna sleep now.

sleepy cz i jz took cough med.

*yawn*

night2 readers.

regards.

日本へようこそ。

2011-03-03T00:28:00.093+08:00

MAS - SIN - JPN

日本へようこそ。

こんにちはみんな。(^o^)／

J A P A N

私たちは安全にここに着きます。

よかったね~ ヽ(^◇^*)/ ♪ ♪ ♪

we went to singapore first.

hangout there.

before practiced our dance steps.

can u imagine that we don't really bother others to look at us while we were dancing in the airport.

until..

one of the stewardess asked me when i entered the aeroplane, that,

"i saw u guys dancing just now, will u guys performing in japan?"

and then,

after we reached nagoya city,

another stewardess wish us "good luck guys!"

hee~

~~awww macam artist pulak kami!~~

hihihi

preparing the gift bag

my camwhore partner. hhe

with the girls~ ^^

us (:

changi airport.

hmm real look after woke up.

nahhh don't care,

the most important --> yeayy! we reached japan dy!

alhamdulillah.

〜(*▽*〜)(〜*▽*)〜

all of us in nagoya airport.

our batch.

aiseyhh.. i'm at the back thr.

not clear de the pic.

warm welcome from the japanese people.

*hugs*

short briefing. (:

after meeting our family.

*うれしい*

pottery place.

lotsa kawaii things here.

cath & i.

us & our siblings. ^^

otoosan. 父親。^^

with neko. love fortune? hhe

our chin-san's parents. ^^

皆に会うこと素晴らしい。

( ^.^) お ( -.-) は ( _ _) つ〜♪

designing.

designing our own plate.

どれが素晴らしいか。

すべてに素晴らしいね!

（⌒_⌒）

this is their vending machine

they have lotsa type of vending machine.

interesting sangat.

my two little brother.

hugs.

cute right?

even this small stuff, cost u rm30++..

family~

*love*

ひろーさん、ゆーくん、こーちゃん、そーちゃん。

happy family. <3

3 flowers. (:

okii neko-chan! ^^

そーちゃん with かわいいたまご。

ゆーくん like these! ^^

ohh this is one of their believes, if the paper that they received was a bad luck, then they must tied it up here.

haa.. jangan fkir kuala kangsar je trkenal dgn labu sayung, japan punn okay! hhe

somehow, i dont know why i like the colours of this flower.

i still can remember that those days one of my pet was spider.

i have lotsa types of spiders.

those days okay, now no more.

>.<'

japanese people normally put that one up thr, near the door, i am not sure they should put thr until when.

x siasat pulakk. hhe

aha really like this!

so creative aren't they? (:

i always saw this statute (which i don't really know the name) in front of their house.

maybe utk murah rezeki? hihihi

simple sketch looks nice though. ^^

grandpa + granny? :p

ゆーくん :D

rest time people! hee~

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okay dr A hingga Z nk sampaikan cara buat ikan kering je.

LOL. XD

i am in love with the wall! <3

actually this is sakura tree.

sorry guys, dahh menghijau kembali.

men-sushi yaw! ^^

green tea. ^^

nak? bancuh sendiri k! :p

lotsa delicious + fresh sushi here.

yummy!

if u guys nk order, order kat sini je, x perlu pakat2 gi counter or panggil org datang.

senang kan! :p

after we ate sushi, we went to my cousin's school.

they were having their sports day.

whoot whoot! malaysia flag!

(semangat kewarganegaraan penting!)

hihihi

shopping time!

their canned foods

those ice-creams were so tempting!

reached home safely.

alhamdulillah.

that night my mum cook us dinner.

thanks alot.

it's delicious! ^^

after that we had a chit-chat time.

that day i slept early cz i am exhausted.

jet lag huh?

LOL.

hihihi

okay, thats all for today.

will update more later.

thanks for viewing ya!

regards.

shine, soon.

2011-02-23T22:30:00.002+08:00

Ohh, mirror in the sky
<3

Can the child within my heart rise above ?

Can I sail through the changing.. ocean tides ?

Can I handle the seasons of my life ?

okay, enough rambling.

mixed all together.

2011-01-29T19:20:00.003+08:00

Ohh girl!
you were just a girl on a bed in a room,

like a kaleidoscope which is a white and black tube full of bits of broken glass

but the way one saw you was pieces with no reflecting but refracting the light,

shifting into an infinite universe of flowers and rainbows
small creatures and planets,

magical dividing cells,

pictures no one else knew.

-EMO-

don't feel like going back until exams seems i have not finish my study yet.

-DILEMMA-

if i didn't go back means i can't meet my lil bro.
yes, yes, i know you guys will say sisterhood i kuat. LOL.

-CONFUSE-

i am not sure what elective subjects am i going to register.
i plan to reg certain subs but one of my lecturer say that probate and administration is hard cz i need to compete with 4th year student. here, means i should take the sub during delta year? which.. kinda ruin my plan.
hmm.. i mean, if i take all subs that all kinda hard to pass during my final year, if sangkut then die lo.
T________T

hmmm.. nw i feel no mood at all.
*cry cry*
okay, off to shower.

scripted memories

2011-01-26T23:57:00.011+08:00

our last scripted memories

he notices everything around him

he sees the moon as it rises

the streaking colors of a sunset

the bird on top of the car across the street

and the beauty of everything

but..

sometimes he did miss out something

i would like to pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in

i know a lot of people know who he is..

but i also know there are not that many who got to see the side of the guy that i did

and that guy, well,

i'll never forget him

never? (:

i've learned so much about life and emotion from knowing him

and

i wouldn't change a thing about it

your heart needs to go through some bumps like these in order to make it through

besides, no matter what he's done or not done

he had the biggest impact on me this past year

esp when he berjaya helped me a lot in forgetting my first long-last-serious crush

hahah

okay, make it short.

people don't stay in your life forever

maybe he came in

he's so kind

he's understanding

always there for you

share everything with you

you're the first person to know anything beside his mom

you're the one who he always search for

for study

for an opinion

for a great news to share with

for a problem to share with

and

the most important is

for you to be his good listener

i still can remember the common statement if u have anything that you want me to know

"I ad secret nak bagitau u. U org pertama i nk cerita.."

hha..

&& tat time i dunno why am i so into it

biarkan je you finish tat story as u like to talk alot XD

then ny i'l give you a comment or my point of view

i am a gud listener though.

*wink*

hm..

everything seems so perfect

then,

from that

you feel like a cupid knock on the door politely

the door that no other guy can ever replace your crush position before

in that moment

u might

yes, u might realize that you had

fall for him

but you stay chill

calm

even if you feel like you want to meet him for every moment

you will feel happy every time you meet him

study together with him in the library

even

you are not in the same course

you feel happy

just the way he disturb you even sometimes you did feel annoyed

you feel happy when he always send you back after study

from library to your apartment

you feel happy whenever you walk with him

you feel that you wanna walk so damn slow when you r walking with him

you feel happy because of his 'cable car' jokes

you feel happy each time he takes a good care of you

whenever you r not feeling well

he will cook for you

make everything easy for you

you feel happy when he did reply something like,

"kesiannya tinkerbell ksygn u hilang, nanti i buat announcement kat bulletin board okay?"

even if u feel down, he still manage to put a smile on your face tho.

you feel happy..

you feel happy every time he text you

you feel happy every time he call you

you feel happy every time he ask you to go out with him

go out to..

watch football

breakfast

lunch

dinner

supper

movies

pc fair

camp

anywhere as long as you're with him

but he is such a great puzzler

who always keep you puzzling around

until..

until you feel tired

which you really need time

time to think back

time to not to fall more even you know the water is getting deeper

.......

......

.....

....

...

you learned from him

and

now

there's nothing more for him to teach you

maybe your time with him is done

maybe it's really time to just let him go

if he has more to teach you

he'll end up coming back

as a friend

as usual

same as previous chapter

about u and him

* sometimes the people who stick around the shortest amount of time can teach you and hurt you the most & sometimes you still miss them even when you shouldn't.

-you are the one who asked me to look back on our last scripted memories-

happy belated birthday budak 'soirang' ! :p

sorry x wish you last year and this year.

siap tuntut tuu x bule tahan. hha

btw,
niy die entry yg u nk i create utk u tuu :D

i am so sorry you, i xd idea sgt actually utk type new entry.

so i just type ap yg i rse nk type.
next time if i ad idea menarik, insya-Allah i make a new one.

hihihi

sincere,

modesty.

2011-01-26T21:42:00.001+08:00

never too humble.. should be thankful for what Allah had granted.

LIFE

take a step back

look at yourself

you are human

you are beautiful/handsome

you are so beautiful/handsome

and you can be anything

you can be everything

do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart

because your parents split up

your best friend betrayed you

the someone called you fat, ugly, nincompoop, worthless

do not concern yourself with things you cannot control

humans' nature

just let it be

they didn't even give any benefit to you

cry when you need to, then let go when it’s time

don’t hand onto painful memories just because you’re afraid to forget

let go of things that are in the past

forget things that aren’t worth remembering

stop taking things for granted

live for something

live for yourself

and family

fall in love

fall out of love

fall in love

fall out of love

do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone

question things

tell people how you really feel

be sincere

sleep under the stars

create

imagine

inspire

share something wonderful

meet new people

make someone’s day

follow your dreams

follow your heart

live your life to it’s full potential

just live

enjoy the moment

let go of all of the horrible in your life

and one day.. when you’re old.. look back with no regrets.

p/s : "let go of things that are in the past". thank you aisyah. nasihat sebegini rupa mmg harus i igt. ^^

my reality.

2011-01-21T18:15:00.000+08:00

assalammualaikum readers. (:

today i rse nk share another one of my favourite song.

enjoy~~ ^^

"My Reality"

I'm not tryin' to pretend
I'm not one for givin' in
To do anything just to be your friend
What ever you expect from me
Think about it carefully
Before this relationship begins

Should I kiss, should I tell
Should I act like someone else
Is it safe to be myself

[chorus]
All these things are constantly
Knocking at my window oh, oh
In a crowd of choices
It's obvious to me
The moral of the story is
That I make my own reality

yea, I'm not trying to be cool
Or tellin' you what you should do
You gotta find out just for yourself
I only know what's right for me
The promises I want to keep
But every day it's something else

Should I drink, should I smoke
Should I lie so I can go
To the party down the road

[chorus 2x]
All these things are constantly
Knocking at my window oh, oh
In a crowd of choices
It's obvious to me
The moral of the story is
That I make my own reality

All these things are constantly
Knocking at my window oh, oh
In a crowd of choices
It's so obvious to me
The moral of the story is
That I make my own reality

Nobody else can live my life
It's my decision
Nobody else can tell me
If I fit in if I belong, feel good enough
And the list goes on and on, and on and on
And on

[chorus 2x]
All these things are constantly
Knocking at my window oh, oh
In a crowd of choices
It's obvious to me
The moral of the story is
That I make my own reality

All these things are constantly
Knocking at my window oh
In a crowd of choices
It's so obvious to me
The moral of the story is
That I make my own reality

u steal my heart away m.f.b.m.r.

2011-01-20T21:48:00.003+08:00

*nk type entry niy sambil dgr lagu 'heartbeat - enrique iglesias' lahh.

baru feel cket! ahaks~!

salam.

few days ago,

he came to my dream.

pretty funny actually.

never talk to him face-to-face.

bump into him few times at my aunty's house and pyramid.

he is my cousin's close friend.

once i saw him, i just feel like "ohh not bad.. and i am pretty sure he is the type of a shy person"

later on, i get to know a few things about him.

*wink*

okay then, enough of that story.

so here, i dont know why,

in my dream..

i saw him.

isnt that cute?

mimpi someone yg ~~belum~~ ad kaitan.

belum?

awww!

LOL.

hihihi

p/s : terigt i membe i ckp, if u mimpi someone tuu means that someone tuu rindu u. then i ckp, bule caye ke bende2 cmni, cm tahyul je? then korg guess ap jwpn membe i? hha

i ske jwpn die!! - if bende yg best2 ape salahny percaye kannn.. haaa.. :p

U.P.Hati : awk pernah rindu sy ke? LOL.

jk jk.

feelings.

2011-01-20T00:08:00.002+08:00

feelings.

what can i say about it..

-M I X E D-

Sometimes the feelings we start to have again are feelings that never really went away in the first place.

you know you’re in love when
you think every love song is dedicated to you
you know you’re heartbroken when
you think every sad song is dedicated to you

*Sometimes what you're searching for..
is right where you left it.

土曜日に会いましょうね

2011-01-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

みんな、土曜日に会いましょうね。

can't wait for 26 too!

たのしみにしています。

*excited*

かわいい~

ありがとうかなーちゃん。

かなーちゃん、アイカーちゃん / アインーちゃん、エリンーちゃん

w(○⌒∇⌒○)w

f l o w e r s ;))

あなたにあえてとてもよかったです。ヽ(^◇^*)/

（*＾＾*)

ハイ、チーズ!

にほんじんはとてもしんせつだとおもいます。

〜(^∇^〜）（〜^∇^)〜

じゃまた!

（ノ´ー｀)ノ~~~~《愛》

2011-01-19T15:21:00.009+08:00

愛

okay, now u tell me how to get rid of this feelings!

（●´･△･｀）はぁ〜

*-there's a reason why am i not ever upload our pics-*

i wanna meet u so badly but i don't dare to.
because i know myself, if i meet u, the flower will start to bloom again.
the feelings will grow again from the seed that i have been trying so hard to quash it away those days..

写真は今でも

あの日のままで。。。

どこまでも遠く流れてく空

ふたりの心どうしてすれ違うの

積み重ねてく想いは。。。

hmmm...

(*´Д｀)=3ハァ･･･

-nothing got to do with someone else-

expound no more.

2011-01-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

had some sort of conversation with lil bro.

heard about it, a 'lemon's talk' with my lil bro.

asking about me.

i knew it those days.

but then..

have been forgotten.

once again have been sweetly reminded.

need no 'tinker-fairy-dust' to recall it.

as i still remember such a witty conversation.

saw the cute 'honey wolfberry' again.

yes again.

again in front of me at the 'blue horizon' there.

there.. straight in front of me.

lil bro asked to view the two's and told the name.

which one is the one that i saw those days?

is it 'honey wolfdew' or 'honey wolfberry'.

i believe it was the second one.

yes, 'honey wolfberry'.

only one question from lil bro,

"what else are you waiting for?"

"-you saw and he asked-"

i said, if there's a 'witchery ider milk tea' flooded the brain then i will whiz ahead like a bullet train and enter the 'strawberry fields' without any scruple.

not to encroach.
but,
i know you will like it and say this,
u had just made a sweet 'grape escape' .

~~F.O.U.N.D.~~

p/s: best pula guna terms2 niy.

mcm key words yg org akan trtanya2 ap yg i mengarut kat entry kali niy.

fuhh terasa ada ~~kesenian~~ dan ~~keunikan~~ bylerh pkai terms2 sebegini ! LOL.

tp utk topic niy nmpk cm serious dan tersirat habis lahh kann, x mcm yg i create something yg lawak dgn mnggunakn terms2 tuu hihihi

tak gitu tira? hihihi

私の親友。

2011-01-18T23:06:00.008+08:00

b e s t f r i e n d - 私の親友。

ain dzulaiqa & siti nur aisyah

okay, die niy dlu i pgl aisyah then makin lme i pendekkn nme die kpd syah je then kdg2 pgl ecah sb ad sesetengah membe pgl ecah n ad sesetangah membe pgl syah.
so, x kesah ap punn yg ktorg pgl, nme tuu tetap milik org yg brname siti nur aisyah niy.
hahah

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

my best friend listen to me when i dont make sense.

my best friend stand by me through thick and thin.

my best friend argue when i'm not right at all.

my best friend trust me when she know i'l mess up.

my best friend will help me out when i'm about to cry esp when i have a problem.

my best friend will always be beside me, to share her & my sadness & happiness.

.. and thats how i know she's truly my best friend.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

a best friend is a connection to life.

a tie to the past,

a road to the future,

and the key to having fun along the way.

thank you for always being there for me babe!

p/s: x sabaq nak chat !! nk share story, nk mntk pendapat, nk claim story, n yg penting nk tau perkembangan semasa senior pujaannn u cte dlu tuu hee~

spouse. realiti kehidupan.

2011-01-17T23:13:00.005+08:00

salam.

hm sorry sgt2 ye rakan2ku, x dpt nk reply msg and angkat phone.

sgtlh busy these few days.

tok i dtg rumah, tok x sihat, harus take care of her.

sng cte, the whole family busy. =.='

okay di situ saje kisahnye.

now, nk borak tentang realiti kehidupan.

fuhh! bunyi cam serious je. hha

hmm okay, dlm salah satu ayat AQ ad mnyatakn, Allah menciptakan org yg baik akan dipertemukan jodoh utk org yg baik dan sebaliknya.

so, mungkin juga pasangan tuu mcm tuuu.

hmm.. xtau cmne nk mulakn cerita but,

i dpt lihat realiti kehidupan depan mata.

depan mata???

mungkinkah darah daging sendiri? atau keluarga kawan? dan mungkin some other strangers???

hmm..

first, rse takut sgt2 if perkara2 sedemikian rupa brlaku dlm family.

huh? perkara sedemikian rupa ap??

actually, perkara sedemikian rupa yg i mksdkn tuu..

soal pasangan yg selalu sgt berkira.

okay, if berkira dgn org lain ke, strangers ke, i mmg bule accept.

tapi, if sangat2 brkira dgn emak sendiri dan seluruh keluarga lak mcm mane??

ohh if me, mmg lahh i sgt2 x gemar. sungguh x gemar.
makan minum emak sendiri susah nak jaga.
time kecik2 dlu emak nk besarkn bukan main susah payah, penat lelah emak xd pulak nk kesah bylerh dah beranak bini.
slumber biarkan emak menggigil kelaparan.. ap mksdny tuu?
bg emak makanan yg x seberapa..
yg x seberapa tuu punn nk berkira?
bg minuman setakat air kosong..
&& if x habis minuman emak, just tutup gelas tuu then simpan khas utk emak minum for next lunch or dinner.
same goes to air kopi ke teh ke segala bagai.
even air dah sejuk, dan yg dahh lama bancuh tuu punn nk berkira?
time nak makan, x d langsung consider perut org2 yg sudah berumur seperti emak.
beli makanan sedap2, sorok untuk diri sendiri.
emak mcm mne?
dibiarkn trliur?
bylerh dpt tau emak terliur, amek langkah lain.. makan di luar.
ohh great! mkn di luar.. blk rumah bw "burp as a present" utk emak.
emak duk rumah dgn harapan, menantu masak utkny & mkn bramai2..
tp.. at the end?
the only food yg emak makan is HATI.
emak diam tanpa kata..
menahan kelaparan tanpa kata..
semua sebab??
x sampai hati nk tegur anak menantu..
nk jge hati?
ye,
emak sendiri makan hati demi nk jge hati anak menantu..
sedih kann if brlaku cmni.
hmm ap punn back to basic, kte smue kne igt, once emak ckp or doakn sumthin atas prkara2 yg anak2 lakukan esp yg x menyenangkn mereka selama masih hidup di dunia.. memang binasa hidup kte smue.
nauzubillah.

then,
ap harus korg buat if kaum keluarga, adik-beradik, emak, sanak saudara dtg brtandang ke rumah?
well,
sudah semestiny kte sambut dorg dgn hati yg trbuka and sure kte hidangkn makanan & minuman.
&& sah2 kte smue akan duduk luar, borak dgn dorg.
spe x happy if jmp adik-beradik, emak.. sng cte darah daging sendiri.
even jmp membe2 punn happy, apatah lg darah daging sendiri kan?
ahaa.. itu hanya tanggapan i selama ini..
br i tau ad species2 yg bukan sedemikian rupe.

darah daging sendiri dtg, die trus msk bilik?
darah daging sendiri dtg, die lebih layan kawan?
darah daging sendiri dtg, die duk menyepi, x borak or even menyapa?
darah daging sendiri dtg, die bule buat hal sendiri?
darah daging sendiri dtg, die bule buat x tau?
darah daging sendiri dtg, die bule keluar ke tempat lain?
darah daging sendiri dtg.. smue perkara yg dilakukn mmg x manis dan sgt tidak sopan.

hmm..
prcye pd karma?
hmm..
prcye pd kitaran hidup?
hmm..
prcye x nanti kemungkinan besar akan brlaku pd diri sndiri bylerh dahh tue, anak2 akan ignore..?
hmm..
prcye x suatu hari nanti, akan trjd prkara yg lebih buruk drp ap yg pernah dilakukan pd org lain?
hmm..
wallahualam.
Allah maha berkuasa.

errkkk.. sekian sje keluhan hati kecil yg melihat realiti kehidupan.

slmt meng-observe org2 sekeliling anda smue ye. (:

*yawn*

tidur dulu ye.

salam.

japanese food tonight.

2011-01-14T20:38:00.005+08:00

japanese food for tonight baby! ^^

*pic hiasan semata2. hihihi

found tis pic, after enjoyed ourselves in one of the water theme park: whoopss! - with sunburn on my hand, thank you.

credit to ellyn. hee~

-------------------------------------------

thurs:
moMmY : your fingernails r too long.
mE : yes, i know. i'l cut on friday. (:

okay, here, kuku panjang..
tats d reason why i slalu time nk mkn mmg wajib cari fork and spoon.
(padahal bkn time kuku pjg je, slalu je kann! hahah)
i tau if mkn pkai tgn time kuku panjang - x secure, kuku kotor, x bersih.
(pesanan ibu terchentaaa setiap kali melihat kuku anak2nya panjang)
no worries, after brsuci (bg yg girls esp i), br i akan potong kuku.
sng, nk tanak nasi ke ap, bersih je kann.
br senang hati family nk mkn. hee~
ohh ohhh ye, slh sorg ustazah i dlu kate, amek wuduk if kuku trlalu pjg, air x kena smp ke isi kuku jd wuduk tuu kira x valid.
jd.. lebih safe, jz make it short.
steady je bersih dan lebih nmpk.. kemas? right?! ahaks~!

haa dah2, pnt type pjg lebar niy, next time i type lg ye.
hhe.
rgrds. (:

squash

2011-01-14T18:47:00.002+08:00

salam.

aha lupe nk update, arytuu ada main squash ngn membe-membe.

fuhh agak lame gak a x brsenam kann.

smp2 je ktorg main kat court yg biase ktorg main tuu.

then, dsbbkn ktorg br-3 dtg awl, n sementara tgu lg sorg membe ktorg, so i gi main kat court sblh seems xd org gune court tuu.

best sgt2 dpt keluarkn peluh ! wee~

after dahh penat main, time brgmbr lak !

(tp xd laa camwhore time niy kann, dgn comot, serabai, brpeluh2 smue, x mau laa snap pic byk2)

ahaks!

okay, guess ap ktorg buat after main squash??? hehehehehe

blk2 apartment amek towel then trus terjun dlm swimming pool !

hho sgtlh sejuk! 10pm++ mmg laa sejuk kann!

first time buat cmni, if slalu buat mcm niy mmg masing2 dpt title pesakit paru2 berair lahh kann!

okay, dahh nk maghrib dahh niy.

later2 if ad mse i update lg ye.

tq bce.

regards.

shades

2011-01-14T18:20:00.003+08:00

shades.

ohh my.. i have to admit that i am so in love with this shades!

ntah bylerh nk beli punn xtau, dahh lahh tgk kopak now..
LOL.

ohh ye, rmai gak tny, knp speck yg i pilih smue ad yg ad space bhgn tepi, kire mcm cermin tuu x tutup penuh smp bingkai speck..

ntah, i punn xtau knp i pilih smue style cmtu

tp i dpt rse ad keunikan di situ. hihihi

aishh.. sudah2lahh tuu, chill dlu, bknny awk tuu xd shades wahai ain dzulaiqa!
sabaq2! *fuhh dugaan2*
hahah

chopstick

2011-01-14T18:15:00.000+08:00

hmm kinda craving for pepper lunch's food !!

still trying to hold the chopstick correctly.

hihihi

pssstttt..! jgn trkejut, nw nafsu makan i besaq okay! hho

i dont know.

2011-01-14T17:15:00.001+08:00

suddenly, all i can think about are the things i don't know about you.

all the things i never had time to learn.

i don't know if your feet are ticklish, or what your favorite movie is.

i don't know what nightmares you had as a child.

i don't know which stars are your favorites or what shapes you sees in the clouds.

i don't know what you are truly afraid of, or what memories you holds closest.

i don't know.

a friend.

2011-01-11T21:56:00.001+08:00

sometimes, independent.

sometimes, mature.

sometimes, childish.

sometimes, just friendly.

sometimes, just ignore.

sometimes, can see the piousness.

sometimes, wanna share a lot of things.

sometimes, too secretive.

sometimes, trying to hide something.

sometimes, weirdo.

sometimes, bossy.

sometimes, swagger.

sometimes, i just dont get it what exactly our friendship mean to u.

is there a wall, barrier or something between our friendship? whenever u r face to face with me, i just can feel the existence of u as a friend.

but, if we're not face to face, far, it's likely, u just ignore our friendship.

is there any misunderstanding between us?

is there anything which u dislike about what i've been saying all this while?

if there is, tell me, inform me..

if u wont tell me, how could i know what is the matter all about?

as far as i am concern there is no quibbling among both of us.

i am sorry, please dont make me feel stroppy in our friendship.

whatever you do, u r still my friend.

-intangible no more please-

you're.

2011-01-11T20:47:00.003+08:00

You’re not the breath I breathe,

just the sweet scent that I enjoy.

You’re not the sights I see,

just the most beautiful of them.

You’re not the water I drink,

just the flavor that makes it taste so good.

You’re not the ground I walk on,

just the partner I sometimes lean on.

You’re not the blood in my veins,

just what makes it burn so sweetly.

You’re not my life,

just the one I want to spend it with.

You’re not my world,

just the best thing in it.

*ehemm! well, this is just for fun, there's nothing got to do with all of these statements. thank you. ^^

good night

2011-01-11T00:26:00.001+08:00

Good night~

i am so gonna sleep now.

ohh i love the weather! it's pretty cold right here!

hee~

so yeah, good night !

sweet dreams people! ;)

having a nice long conversation with my amoys (:

2011-01-09T01:19:00.001+08:00

sanice..!! we miss you alot de~

we all did not planned well to meet up with sanice actually seems that everyone is busy and some didnt give any feedback whether want to have dinner together with our member, sanice.

as usual, last minute plan, only ellyn, yen eng and i went to have dinner with sanice. hee~

we talked alot, yeahh alot okay.. too many stories to be share with as we didnt meet up quite a long time. hho

such a nice cafe

should be following the great feng shui

dgn bamboo tree bagai. (:

i nak yg blueberry tuu puhhlishhh..! ;p

actually, i nk rse yg warna2 biru tuu sb nmpk menarik but then x jd hhe

2 amoy so shiokk chit-chatting about facial thingy! hahah

ellyn & sanice

omg! yes baby i love this place!! :D

so geng liao! love it love it!

ellyn, sanice and i ((:

yen eng, ellyn and i ((:

four amoys! hee~

my drinks! ^^

ellyn not really satisfied with her drinks. if u dont believe then see her face again! LOL.

sanice! finally we all have time to meet again!! wee~

yen eng!

we all curi2 her LOL. ;p

and i dont know who is this amoy actually.. do u guys know her??? LOL. hihihi

last photo before we went back.

dont forget this wed yeahh!

ellyn, u shud be ready with the songssss for us! ahaks~!!

okay, that's all for today.

night2 people~